My life as an otaku

My life is a mess. That's how it goes. Otaku means a person with so much love in manga and anime'. I'm 20 and still my love for manga and anime never changed. I have a confession to make and that is I'm proudly a sole owner of an account in tumblr managing lots of manga/anime boys' pictures and being followed by my fellow otaku estimating 500+ and adding. It's crazy right? All my free time is devoted in posting. Tumblr keeps telling me to be myself, and one of the things belongs to "being myself" is by posting. I'm working part-time now, I stopped studying for a year because I want to go back to the philippines and continue my studies there. I stopped anime when I'm studying so when there is an opportunity to return, i returned loving anime again. return being myself. i hate taking risks, it worries me. like, i'm afraid of doing something new. every people once in a while feel that way, right? it's normal. but, it can't be helped. anime is just an hobby and thought me so many things. it teaches me to go on, smile and face the world. it reflects a world that when you do your best, everything can fall into places. that, when you can hardly see yourself, someone will see you in a new light. if people seems distant, you can have your closest friends by your side and together you'll smile like there is no tomorrow. it teaches me that love can find it's way. that love can be at your doorsteps. it can give you hope. it can give you a wonderful feeling. you must fight for it, even if it will be so hard along the way. lastly, anime is anime. it is not true, i know. it can end in a 12 or 25 episodes. but, it's the lesson that all that matters.

so, when you feeling blue, try watch one. ;)

life

Hi. It's september. I'm going back to the philippines again next month exactly a month from now. I must continue my studies, take a review and pass the board. I know it will take time, and i know that things are easy said than done, but it is how it goes. At least, for now, I'm decided. I know things might go good or bad along the way, but I know it will be ok. When things go wrong, it's easy for me to resolve by keeping quiet, by blaming in myself and forgetting than condemning on others, carry the hurt and hate others. 

Like these tiny little birds borned a day old, I will surely be strong and look for a new beginning. I can feel that it's up to me from now on, on how my future will be built. I'm taking time, chances, and a lot of patience. I know it will be ok, God will be by my side. I know I can never be lonely for I'm always in the presence of an important person to whom in the first place, I owe my life with. And as long as He doesn't want to get back my life, I'll be in here, with so much hope for happiness.

long live! good luck!