It's Monday. Hi! It's about 10 days+ after my birthday. I'm 20 years old now. It's the start of thinking and thinking so hard. I admit that this part of my life, I will make decisions that can make a different path into different/mysterious future. It hurts in my head, I think about two things and that is if I'm gonna continue studying or continue working.
I know God has plans. I prayed to Him to do the decision-making because I can't decide it myself. It is my weakness because from my childhood years my parents are the one deciding and I'm just being obedient doing what they like and trying to analyze why they plan that. I suck into deciding on my own, and for me to decide this big for my future.. my head and heart hurts. It is so hard to balance out things. Because in the end, if I fail... there is no one Ican blame but myself. And I may regret, balme and pity myself. I may think that I'm stupid and weak.
Anyways, God will bless me!
bye.;)
and so... this is my story. This is my fairy tale story, simple adventures and treasured moments.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
June 9.
The day before my 20th birthday. If I were to sumup all my experiences my 19 th year living, i'll be spending several hours of typing, and bucketful of tears. Tomorrow, I'll be leaving my teen years and it was so hard for me. You know why? Because everytime I age... I regret the days that it could be more happy if things were in my control and I, have been more true to myself. Things changes everyday, time flys so fast... i always say that.. and I, being left out by the world.
As off my last day of being a teen, it is nice to know that I found myself alive, typing and doing stuffs at net, which I really like.. I am about to enter a world full of new things and new trials, that to be honest, I am afraid myself. I am to face whatever things will be up to, whether it means sacrifing myself... and what I really want. Life is ironic, and the whole world balances it. I may be have,, or surely... have gray days..but I terribly believe that things will be alright.Things will go into places, and even if I don't want it...it can't be helped. The sun will still shine from our left and it will fall down to our right. I think... I will be ok...i will.
happy birthday to myself!
As off my last day of being a teen, it is nice to know that I found myself alive, typing and doing stuffs at net, which I really like.. I am about to enter a world full of new things and new trials, that to be honest, I am afraid myself. I am to face whatever things will be up to, whether it means sacrifing myself... and what I really want. Life is ironic, and the whole world balances it. I may be have,, or surely... have gray days..but I terribly believe that things will be alright.Things will go into places, and even if I don't want it...it can't be helped. The sun will still shine from our left and it will fall down to our right. I think... I will be ok...i will.
happy birthday to myself!
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